The last half of this year has been really testing my fears. One of my biggest fears is dying of an infection that is antibiotic resistant and I have been septic TWO different times since September. I have been getting UTI’s that just don’t seem to go away and don’t respond to any mix of antibiotics. I was sent home on iv ones and then got shots where I think my hips suffered worse and pills and more pills. I just keep thinking of my kidneys and liver functions and just pray that these antibiotics aren’t causing more harm then no good they are doing! 😡

I have had so many different tests looking at my bladder. Everyone thinks there is a fistula from my Crohns. In the past I have had several and they suspected that it was causing UTI issues then too. In March had all kinds of scopes done after my daughter was born and it showed my crohns was still in remission. I also don’t feel like I did when I had the fistulas last time but I have to go through all this testing to see what’s going on. I have had about 3 cameras go into my bladder and nothing and now today I have a test where they look at my colon and is it’s hiding out in there.

This prep has not been fun at all 🙅🏻‍♀️ I hate that I had to drink that nasty drink and go again putting harmful things in my body. I would rather have cheated on a box of Oreos or a margarita! It’s funny how I can easily go a day without eating because my stomach hurts or I have to much to do and I can’t have my stomach acting up or I just forget but when I can’t eat for a test let me tell you all the cravings kick in and all the things I wish I could eat start to pop up!

For this test today they have to do a barium enema and see where it goes. If I have a fistula it should show it leaving the colon. I have an appointment tomorrow with my old GI’S office just to kind of get back into the swing of things.

2019 is definitely ending very doctor filled!

-XO,