Life…. I have been dealing with life… I know we all walk our different journeys and we never know how people experience certain things they face. I can say that the end of 2017 took a huge toll on me emotionally and physically. Living with an illness is a full-time job on its let alone dealing with the punches life throughs at everyone.

I know I mentioned the weight gain and how I struggled with it during the birth control process for my Endometriosis. Well, it turns out I also have PCOS and still am getting tested for Hashimoto’s. The other portion of my weight gain was stress. I have been under so much stress I couldn’t enjoy doing the few things that bring me joy in this world, and that is blogging.  I am in grad school as everyone knows, my full-time school and full-time job struggle. I can’t lie I didn’t have time to do that and blog and work out. But something I was keeping a secret from everyone is that during this year I have been going through a divorce. It has been about a year that I found out there was an issue with infidelity and just lost trust in the relationship. Before this, there was such a lack of support in just about every aspect which in my reflection lead to the cheating. We tried to make it work which is another reason why I couldn’t blog. I felt that I had to put whatever little time I did have into trying to make it work and giving my all to save the marriage and not have that judgment from others. I left the pain and suffering inside which manifested into such a loss and grief and showed in my school work and overall life. I was very depressed and sick. It was all so much for me to handle and process and I lost my sparkle.

Fast forward to 2018, and I am back to getting to be the best me there can be! I have missed my blog so much and realized the joy I have in expressing my feelings and sharing it with others that I know I have to keep this up to keep my sanity.

18 has ALWAYS been my lucky number, and I am not letting this year go to waste. I am done not putting myself and my needs first. I have goals to get back to my hot bod, and it is my 10-year diagnosis anniversary, and I want to do the most amount of outreach and advocating ever!! I know that if I focus on me and my weight, I can and will do it!  And because I missed my blogging I am going to document my raw, unfiltered struggle of my journey. I loved my videos and will get back to it! I am so inspired and ready to share my2018 journey with the world!!!!

No more steps backwards only sloth movements forward!!!!!

-XO,