Ok guys as most of you know I am busy with work, school, living with my illness and just overall life…. With all that being said I know most of my Instagram and Twitter is filled with my time at the gym and all those sweaty selfies. We all know my diet is pretty much on point until that Ben and Jerrys almond milk ice cream gets in my way 😉 I have been on a weight loss journey for almost a year now and nothing…. NOTHING!!!!!! I spend hours at the gym and even have a trainer and still NOTHING. Let me tell ya’ll I do not eat kale and quinoa to be this way. I say be because the weight gain is effecting my joint pains from my RA a lot and it’s way too much weight to move around. 

I decided to look into this 45ish pound weight gain what started it where did it come from? I had actively lost all this weight a year before. I decided to have my thyroid looked at. From all the steroids I have been on I have suffered from adrenal insufficiency and have been thought to have Hashimoto’s. After blood work my thyroid looks ok for what I have been through. After I was rudely insulted by the doctor who wanted to do more testing for insulin resistance issues (I’ll leave that story for another blog) I walked out for everyone’s safety. 

After the thyroid testing came back as ok I had to make a choice what I know will cause me pain and will not be easy. It was my birth control shot for my endometriosis…I know it can make you gain weight but I can’t lose anything I do not eat any more than normal. I get the shot every 8 weeks not 12 so I know I am at the most frequent dosage and after almost 2 years I am scared of the long term effects. I know it can cause bone density issues and from the steroids I am already at high risk. My hair is thinking and this weight is depressing me. I am happy with myself-do not get me wrong but I know where I can and how my overall health was at 130 and I will do everything to get back there. 

Long story short I stopped my shots. I am one week and I am DREADING the pain that will come from this it has been a while since I have had a cycle and I am hoping my insurance will come though quickly and grant my surgery out of network and I can just get by with my diet and self-care. I will keep up with my Instagram mostly every day to show everyone how I am feeling and when I start noticing the effects/ withdrawal from these meds that wreaked havoc on my body. I am still keeping up with my work outs and diet in hopes it comes. slow and steady wins the race. I tell myself everyday it is not a race but a marathon. I need to find my balance. I have taken my pictures so I can document my before because I know this change is happening and I will be successful no matter how slow it takes!!! 

 

-XO,