It’s been sooooo long since I have taken time to blog! So much has happened in my life that I had to take a step back from just about everything and spend my energy on the present and experience life.

I found out I was pregnant in March! I spent the last 8 years thinking I couldn’t get have kids. Doctors kept telling me it would be very hard for me and that I probably shouldn’t with all my health complications. I had put it in my head that I wouldn’t be able to experience all this. Well life has a way of giving you exactly what you always dreamed about when you least expect it.

I went to the hospital with kidney pain and had been throwing up. I did the standard checkin blood pressure, rate your pain from 1-10, and pee in the cup. I was taken to a room and had my port accessed. The doctor came to talk and said that I did in-fact have an infection but they couldn’t treat it how they typically could because I was PREGNANT!!!! My boyfriend and I just looked at each in pure disbelief.

I’m going to blog this whole story in its own post!

The next 7 months were so hard. I was so sick and finishing up my masters! While all this was going on I was so miserable. I was working full time and just living 50-50 with my boyfriends 2 kids.

I was followed by maternal fetal 2 times a week when i got into the 3rd trimester. At 36 weeks I woke up Monday morning to go to work and I felt all this pressure and water ( I thought I was peeing myself!!!). We made it to the hospital and turns out my water did break so they were going to induce me.

After 27 hours my beautiful baby girl had arrived 😭😭💍💍

During this time my now fiancé got full custody of the kids. We went from every other week to full time with a brand new baby. It was honestly a lot to deal with with all the hormones.

My beautiful baby at 3 weeks was hospitalized with strep. It was such a hard thing to go through and overall very stressful. It started all these issues with my crohns.

2 weeks after being home I started noticing her stomach was doing strange things and she was in so much pain trying to go. It honestly shattered my heart and there again was the stressing. The “what have I done?!” Have I passed on my awful illness?! This is why doctors said I shouldn’t have kids!

When she had blood in her stool I lost it. Turns out she has a milk allergy so they changed her formula and started a referral process to go to Shands to see a pediatric GI. I drive 4 hours to see my doctor in the same building. Those thoughts keep pushing through my head.

We have hit the 2 month mark and have enjoyed the holidays! I go back to work this month and it’s so bittersweet to leave my beautiful baby. I was approached by some readers as to why I had fallen off the instagram world and wanted to know how the baby journey went. I am getting back into blogging my journey!

-XO,

Gotguts08