I was driving in the car with my husband after what I thought was a productive day with teaching my yoga class and stopping at the mall to check on a sale 😉 I barely slept the night before and was up in the bathroom at all hours of the night and morning. I feel asleep right before my alarm went off. On the way home I was telling my husband about a mug I saw on Instagram that said “Lazy AF”, He said that fit me to a T.  We sat there in silence while I was thinking to myself that I don’t think as myself as lazy I am just tired all the time-I had already felt like I had done a lot, I knew I probably should clean or workout but all I could physically do was rest and nap. I always create these mental lists of things I would want to accomplish in the weekend but if I don’t get to it I know it is OK because I am taking care of me. I know to anyone else who doesn’t suffer from a chronic illness it can seem like all I do is lay on the couch under my heated blanket watching Snapped or Dateline but getting out of bed, brushing my hair, teeth and just moving from the bed to the couch can seem like I ran a marathon. I also just got out of the hospital a few days ago after being admitted and treated with steroids, pain medication, Phenergan, and overall lack of sleep really takes a toll on your body and days after you still feel the effects. I think it just boils down to the difference between looking lazy and realizing that it is self-care and just how living with a chronic illness can make you feel like no amount of sleep can make you feel rested which is fatigue. Fatigue I do not think can be truly explained only one who has gone through it can truly understand.

-XO,