Day one—I can’t even begin to tell y’all how sick I have been feeling. It has been really rough with school, work and trying to live. I will be the first to tell you that I have slacked on my health and eating right was the first to go. (Notice how I said First) …Feeling the way I have been has got me thinking WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSLEF???????? For example, it is not like I am eating cupcakes and doughnuts left and right it is like eating organic humus… I love humus so much and as a snack it is easy and just ready to go, but I cannot eat it. I swell and my fingers get big, my stomach hurts and overall no bueno… but what do I do? I go to Costco and buy a good deal of 20 induvial packages of them!!! It is so good but yet so bad and then I can’t throw it away because there is 18 at this point…. It’s been viscous cycle and I can say that I have thrown them out! I will no longer (try to) do this to myself because it is easy and semi healthy. I am a firm believer of the Paleo lifestyle and know firsthand how much good it can do for a person. Following these Paleo people, you see that they live this 80-20 lifestyle… and I am like yeah 80-20 nope, I’m dying in a comer of a bathroom. I know I need to be 100 Paleo… but it is so hard (excuses I know) with school and work. I am going to use this holiday week to get 100% back on track and do this thing! I already meal prep but I need to actually eat my meals and not cheat- especially with humus and back down on plantain chips (I can and will eat a whole bag in a wink of an eye). I am also going to up my exercise game and take full advantage of school ending for the semester and get my but into gear so next semester I have no excuse or reason to harm myself. I will be using my blog and Instagram to add accountably but I know what I am doing and how not to cheat my system… here is hopes to getting back on track and not falling for that spoonful of pecan pie!

• I also got put on a new drug Metaformin ( not sure if have already spoken about this o here) but I just got the dosage up-ed to see if can the weight come off.. I think this will help get me out this mental funk I am.. I am not happy with how I look and it is very discouraging to do all I do to not lose weight but in fact gain…I am at a new all time high for me and I am feeling the impact of this weight on my body and it is just making me depressed. This is part of the chain I am going to break. I have been at the weight I want to be at before and I will get there again!

-XO,